Monday, October 01, 2007

I am Woman; hear me, ummm, whimper?

Remember when I first announced my pregnancy, how I was so determined that nothing would change? That everything would be fine and as easy as with my first pregnancy?
Well, all of that changed.
And I'm holding on, but barely.
Thursday knocked me off my feet and scared me a lot. I got to work, and went to the washroom where I saw lots and lots of blood. My friend (and colleague) brought me to the hospital where I stayed off and on for a couple of days. The problem really was that they couldn't figure out why it happened. But, thankfully on the first day they heard a heartbeat. And then they sent me home late that afternoon saying that only time would tell and that I had to return the next day for an ultrasound - that would actually let us know if things were okay.
They were. In fact, the baby was moving so much that they couldn't get as much information as they wanted to. As the ultrasound technician explained, the info they needed which was that there was a heartbeat and "a single live fetus" was established. The fact that it is an acrobat is something for another technician to deal with.
I went from there to the early pregnancy clinic. The final decision was that they couldn't figure out what had happened, but I needed to take it easy. Really easy. No standing, no walking, no exercising and no picking up Matthew.
By Friday I was exhausted. And I had a cold. And I felt sick.
So, I spent the weekend doing nothing. Well, Matt and I had a failed trip to Shoppers Drug Mart where we had to have Mike come and pick us up.
My muscles hurt, my throat hurts, my head hurts. I'm nervous about hurting this baby.
And, I'm not going to whine my way through pregnancy. But still. ahhhhhh!
To everyone who asked, yes. I'm fine. As fine as I think I'm going to be. I desperately need to wax my eyebrows, get a hair cut and have a good cup of coffee, but all that aside, I think we're holding it together.
Mike and I are trying to change some things - I'm going to sleep in a little later and Mike is going to help get matt up. Little things - but things to make life survivable and make me less whiny.
Any other suggestions ... bring it on.


AndreAnna said...

Maybe hire a housekeeper? It can make a world of difference in your sanity level. I know its hard to splurge on things we feel we can do ourselves, but this might make it easier on you and Mike for the rest of the pregnancy. It's not like its forever.

I am glad everything is okay and hope you stay healthy and well and cook this baby to perfection!

Teena said...

Take it easy, Girl! Take care!

Multi-tasking Mommy said...

My only advice to you is to let everything go! The little things don't matter--e.g. clean house, etc. REST and learn how to deligate! Hopefully that isn't as hard for you as it would be for me.

I'm thinking of you and I know that you and the baby will both make it through this.

Ginny said...

How about massage, manicure and pedicure too? And most definitely a trip to see Bill!! But I'll probably get yelled at for suggesting all that because you're not suppose to do this or that when you are preggers!

Anyway, pregnancy is the pits when you've had a scare and even more so when they can't tell you why. It changes everything about your pregnancy and now you are probably going crazy analyzing every twinge, cramp and toilet paper piece (sorry I know it's too much info) so if you whimper, you whimper. You can't go through that and pretend that everything is perfect, it's stressful. And the stupid cold doesn't help.

I don't think I will be the only person to tell you that you are so much more tired with the second one. You feel like you are twice as big and you can't just fall down tired like you did the first time because you have a monkey you are chasing around.

I'm so sorry you have had to go through this Laural. It's not an easy thing but you will make it through. I'm glad to see that Mike is helping out and you are getting some rest. Just remember that you don't have to do it all. If the laundry, dishes and cleaning have to wait another day so be it. You need to take care of you and the belly bean!!

Karen MEG said...

Just make sure you really stay off your feet too much, get the rest, let others help (don't worry if you have to do takeout or bring home all the ready made/ convenience foods out there - there's some really good timesaving, fairly healthy stuff). I know it's really difficult as a mom to do all these things (as in "not do too much"), but you can do it.

sam said...

Take it easy girl!! That sounds like a scary past couple days, but everything will work out as planned!

You're scaring my with talk about how tired you are because that's my biggest fear - trying to stay active and able to manage a toddler while pregnant! LOL

Amy said...

I'm still available to deliver coffee anytime Missy! :)
Take care!!!
Big hugs!

bubandpie said...

I found pregnancy a lot tougher the second time around. It just is. You're allowed to whine once in awhile (especially after what you went through - that's so hard!). I'm glad everything is okay with the baby.

zdoodlebub said...

Sorry you had such a scare. Ditto to bubandpie - you're allowed to whine. Prayers are with you.

Urban Daddy said...



Just take care. Making Mike do more work should help :) Any family in the area? Would you consider a house-keeper / p/t nanny?

Try to score as many ultrasounds as you can until your nerves are calmed.

Decaf coffee... LOL

Her Bad Mother said...

Sweetie, you're allowed to whine. My pregnancy with Wonderbaby was scary like that and the whining was the only thing that kept me sane.

You take care of you.

Kristen said...

Oh my gosh, you must have been so afraid, you must still be. I hope you can get the help you need, lots of prayers and hugs coming your way.