Creating

The other day I was looking for a card for a friend and I came across a magnet with a really cool saying:

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

Okay. So sure it's just a magnet from the bookstore. But, it's phrases like that that make me think stop and ponder life for just a minute.

It's funny because so often I try to figure out who I am. Or what I'm doing. Or why I'm doing something. I've read so often on blogs that people are trying to reinvent, or make themselves better or, yep, find themselves.

But, I like this. I like knowing that at the end of the day there's nothing to search for - it's up to you to decide and create and invent.

Something that people often say about me is that I'm fearless. Surely that isn't true about everything in my life. Fear can be crippling. But dare me to do something, to try something, to prove myself and I'm your girl. And, sometimes I figure, why not keep trying. Why not go day by day and conquer my fears? Hey, as Julie Powell would say "What could happen?"

You'll Have to Forgive Our Slayer Fest ...

You know sometimes you read a book and then you *have* to do something. Like, perhaps go on a trip to New York? Or maybe search out Ashrams in India or I don't know but you have to do something?
Please say you do.
Or maybe it's just me.
Whatever.
The point is, when I finish a really good book I rarely just sit and stew. I go and I do. And sometimes I do crazy stuff. Like start this blog. (really - that was after reading Knocked Up!) Or try a yoga class (Stuck in Downward Dog). I've tried different drinks (coffee or otherwise). Why not.
So, of course I went on my NY road trip after reading Cleaving.
I also decided to watch Buffy.
And, this weekend was Slayerfest 2010.
And if you got that reference you clearly are somewhat of a Buffy Fan.
Mike and I watched 22 episodes in 3 days. #AwesomeParenting FTW!
Really. We did.
I'd be lying if I said it was only at night. We watched all day. During naps. While the kids were playing. Matt had no interest in watching a show with vampires. But, he was more than happy to have the computer all to himself for most of the weekend. And Chloe loved dancing to the music. And shouting "MONSTER" every time I jumped.
And I am fully obsessed with the show.
It is wonderful and thrilling and hilarious to get sucked into a new show and know that you have hours of commercialess tv ahead of you. Full of Buffy goodness.
And the lines.
OMFG the LINES!!!!
They are wonderful.
Like this one from Angel.

"Bottom line is, even if you see 'em coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So what are we, helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come. You can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are. You'll see what I mean."

 

I think I have Buffy fever. It's a little shameful. But so good.

In case you're wondering ... I love Spike. I love Drucilla. Of course I'm a little in love with Giles. Buffy or Faith? Ummmmm ... haven't decided. And Angel kind of annoys me.